Confessions of an ex-World of Warcraft gamer.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Withdrawal Log: September 30th-October 6th

September 30th
  • At home now, cleaned up what needed to be cleaned up, which isn't very much. I ordered a new muffler for my car, as my current one could blow someone's eardrums out. I went to my cousin's house and got my hair cornrowed. It looks very pretty, but she did them up so tight, I can't turn my head without pivoting the rest of my body. Other than that, I'm enjoying the evening. I need to lay my clothes out for tomorrow's service.
October 6th

The week has been too busy for me to keep log regularly, so I'll talk about the highlights up until today. I went and did a google search for the church I talked about, Central Church of God of Charlotte, N.C. I found out that, though it's a nice community, the upper levels support beliefs I'm very against. They pulled funding from two Charlotte charities because one had funders from the Catholics, and another allowed Muslim students to volunteer (For references, see the articles here and here.). In addition to finding this on the internet, his happened in 2005 and I tried to search for a rebuttal. There wasn't one. When Thursday came and I went to the college service, I had meant to ask but didn't. Reason being was that I found two documents: one advertising a convention for Christian Apologetics (which, for example, listed Unitarians as a threat. Many Unitarians practice Christianity), and the other advocating prayers for Muslims. Not so much so for aid, but more to accept the idea as Jesus as God. Mind you, I'm not trying to turn this into a religious pundit blog; I'm simply stating why this church I found so much hope in now has a high chance of not working out for me, and it doesn't have to. I don't like the idea of one group displaying themselves as more righteous than the other; we're all human. This also made me see that I need more time to myself in terms of spirituality and just meditate.

That aside, I got a new job starting this Monday tutoring elementary students and teaching English as a second language. I'm excited about it but very nervous. As I said, I have a hard time with eye contact and communication even since becoming addictive. I hope I can control it or get out of it as I really like tutoring and would like to keep this job through school.

School is busy. I'm going for 12 hours on Tuesday and 9 hours on Thursday. All the classes are good and I'm hoping for another good quarter.

I still feel nervous sometimes and have cravings. It's like a dull burn. I'm taking St. John's wort until I can get to my appointment with the psychiatrist on the 18th.


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